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Tuesday, Apr 21st, 2009 ↓
My day in thirty seconds. Woke up early but I was still late. For some reason I couldn’t sleep at night. I look at my bed sometimes and I truly believe it laughs at me. I tried the whole “turn off everything and close my eyes” but when I do that… again I just got questions. So then I twitter. Then I read. Then I look at the clock and its about 3 in the A.M. LOL. but tonight will be different. It has to be. Ok. So yesterday I went to Austin. I had a good time I met a friend there and it was great. I ate Italian food. Yummy. Something I noticed about me. I always tend to do the same things that I know. Let me explain. When I was told we were going to eat Italian, two foods came to my mind. Spaghetti and pizza. Now there are a lot more things on the menu and some sound so delicious but I had to go with what I know. I would hate to order food and not eat it. lol. I heart food. You ever start talking to someone and feel like you dominate the conversation? I seem to control it when the silence of a conversation gets so thick that it chokes me. I seem to spit out random stories about my life, my thoughts, or my random questions. That’s how I deflect certain feelings. If you go on a date, a first date, how long is too long? I know people who hold it down to about an hour.  No matter how good or how bad it is  going, one hour and that’s it. Me. I think if I meet someone who interests me… well I stick around. I have already openly claimed that I am the kinda guy who will stick around at a party and help clean in the morning because I slept on the couch. LoL. When you first meet someone is it a hand shake or a hug. Male on male = no hug… maybe the handshake, one hander tap on the back kind of thing, but that would be about it. Male on female =???? I don’t know.  A hardy handshake. And what if her handshake was stronger than mine. OMG. Am I the woos?? Aww….  And if that’s the first time you met then what would you do at the end of the “initial meeting?” hand shake? I would feel so awkward if I would have gone for a hug and got a hand shake. I took advice from someone I know little about. But I have to admit that it made sense. He said that he treats a first date like an interview. Ask questions and respond to those. Another friend said have fun because you just might make a new friend. Now if I took both of these advices and I added my nervousness and dominating conversational skills, I feel like I come off like a jerk. I have been under the radar from my friends and make work my passion. Tomorrow I have a meeting with the big executives type and I know how its going to go. They will talk and I will listen. I will meet a lot of my peers and wear a pathetic smile that only masks the true feelings of me not wanting to be there. I know I have nothing in common with most of them. I don’t think I am better but I have no equal conversation to relate any sort of interest with them. And the minute I step out on a ledge to try, they like to talk behind my back. So I keep to myself and maybe I will get through it all. Ok one last thought. To whom it may concern. (and you know who you are crazy lady.) I am the one to call out the obvious. I am the one to feel rejection before it starts. I like stress to a certain degree. I find the funny things about myself because I can’t laugh at anyone else till I laugh at me. And last but not least I am the one to over analyzes a common situation. But again that’s me. And if you’re still reading this, then we are friends. Cuz now you know a little bit more about me. ;)

My day in thirty seconds.

Woke up early but I was still late. For some reason I couldn’t sleep at night. I look at my bed sometimes and I truly believe it laughs at me. I tried the whole “turn off everything and close my eyes” but when I do that… again I just got questions. So then I twitter. Then I read. Then I look at the clock and its about 3 in the A.M. LOL. but tonight will be different. It has to be.

Ok. So yesterday I went to Austin. I had a good time I met a friend there and it was great. I ate Italian food. Yummy. Something I noticed about me. I always tend to do the same things that I know. Let me explain. When I was told we were going to eat Italian, two foods came to my mind. Spaghetti and pizza. Now there are a lot more things on the menu and some sound so delicious but I had to go with what I know. I would hate to order food and not eat it. lol. I heart food.

You ever start talking to someone and feel like you dominate the conversation? I seem to control it when the silence of a conversation gets so thick that it chokes me. I seem to spit out random stories about my life, my thoughts, or my random questions. That’s how I deflect certain feelings.

If you go on a date, a first date, how long is too long? I know people who hold it down to about an hour.  No matter how good or how bad it is  going, one hour and that’s it. Me. I think if I meet someone who interests me… well I stick around. I have already openly claimed that I am the kinda guy who will stick around at a party and help clean in the morning because I slept on the couch. LoL.

When you first meet someone is it a hand shake or a hug.
Male on male = no hug… maybe the handshake, one hander tap on the back kind of thing, but that would be about it.
Male on female =???? I don’t know.  A hardy handshake. And what if her handshake was stronger than mine. OMG. Am I the woos?? Aww….  And if that’s the first time you met then what would you do at the end of the “initial meeting?” hand shake? I would feel so awkward if I would have gone for a hug and got a hand shake.

I took advice from someone I know little about. But I have to admit that it made sense. He said that he treats a first date like an interview. Ask questions and respond to those. Another friend said have fun because you just might make a new friend. Now if I took both of these advices and I added my nervousness and dominating conversational skills, I feel like I come off like a jerk.


I have been under the radar from my friends and make work my passion. Tomorrow I have a meeting with the big executives type and I know how its going to go. They will talk and I will listen. I will meet a lot of my peers and wear a pathetic smile that only masks the true feelings of me not wanting to be there. I know I have nothing in common with most of them. I don’t think I am better but I have no equal conversation to relate any sort of interest with them. And the minute I step out on a ledge to try, they like to talk behind my back. So I keep to myself and maybe I will get through it all.

Ok one last thought. To whom it may concern. (and you know who you are crazy lady.) I am the one to call out the obvious. I am the one to feel rejection before it starts. I like stress to a certain degree. I find the funny things about myself because I can’t laugh at anyone else till I laugh at me. And last but not least I am the one to over analyzes a common situation. But again that’s me. And if you’re still reading this, then we are friends. Cuz now you know a little bit more about me.

;)

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