little bit about what up with me.

Well I am here opening a beer. I know I know… (beer=yucky) Today I talked to a friend. It was about a conversation me being boring. Im going to explain it like this. I believe that if I was a book, there is not a single woman that would read it to the end. She would pick it up read about half way through it and say “umm… it’s not what I thought it would be.” And place it on the table. Now I say this and even though it sounds like I am complaining, being depressed, or just making a sad story about myself, I have to admit that I am ok. I am. Someone told me that once I am ok with being single then I could be with someone. I didn’t understand that at first because I was so consumed with trying to be with her. I mean come on now. 30 single not with kids. Can I keep describing the negative sides of me? lol. And when this person left my life so suddenly, I was destroyed. Brick wall, brick wall, brick wall. Then one day I woke up and it wasn’t that cloudy outside. The rain turned to sprinkles and then to sunshine. Now on the others hand I have to say even though I am ok being on my own, there are sometimes where I catch myself in a rut. Seeing the “perfect couple” does tend to make want that. Envious of that… sure! But I take that step back and think that the girl that wants to be with me…. no wait… the woman that wants to get to know me better will show up. She has to. And to the person who said to me “how can you always be positive?” Faith. I have to trust that things will fall in place. They have so far. And if they don’t then it was never meant to be. I have met a lot of interesting people whether it be on twitter.com, match.com, myspace.com or yahoo. I just have. And maybe sometimes the people you don’t know face to face are the best people to receive who you really are. They don’t judge. Perfect. 
 So when you read this.(if anyone still does) I purpose that there be a no judging rule for the next 24 hours. Maybe that geek that sits in the corner who keeps to himself is a great person and you should meet him. The loose girl that does her thing. Hey maybe she has a story. Say hi. You don’t have to be friends. Just know that there is a bigger world out there

dueces

Sleep doesnt come over night