Sleep doesnt come over night

just saying.. you tell me…

Ok so this is just something for the twitters in my life. I am not going to blog this until I already know the outcome.

My boys are coming down this Friday. My parents volunteered to get my boys on Friday. Now it sucks because I still have to work. I mean I know what I have to do. It’s ok. But there is a family function that is happening on Saturday. I am choosing not to take them there. If I have my boys then why cant I do what I want to. Hang with my boys. I know it looks bad because I am not taking them to a family thing. But why. When I go there I feel like everyone talks behind my back. (how many people are going to have a fit with that statement?.) that’s what I feel. Not everyone. Not everyone. But haters are all around.

(now playing  Gravity by John Mayer) so I will see how much my family resents me for not doing an action.  I will get some negative results. If I don’t, then they are hiding. I am all about opinions. What people think. Because maybe I will see another side of things.  But who knows.

There are not many things that someone could say to me that would make me feel like a lesser of a person. But when someone does, it kind of kills what you think of yourself. Ugh.

Gravity stay the hell away from me.